如果有如果

这世界 如果有如果
如果一切重头
如果你再说你爱我
习惯阿 熟悉的温柔
turn around turn around turn around
怎么还是 一个我
雨滴滴答答的坠落
还有什么说不出口
泪不停不停的滑落
习惯没有你的角落
I want to sing a song for you
sing for myself
没有你的天空 没有云朵
you are my everything
and I really love you
在泪干了以后 想听你说 爱我
想太多 如果有如果
如果永远爱我
如果最后能到最后
一个人 该习惯什么
习惯晚安自己说
I want to sing a song for u
在泪干了以后 却还记得
还记得青苹的酸甜
酸到心里没有感觉
梦太美 回忆太心碎
再多给我 一点点的勇气
在泪干了以后 想听你说 love you
如果你还在
请 说你爱我

为何？

我真的不明白。。。世上每个人都可以做任何选择。。偏偏我选上了你。。我不但选了你。。还接受你。。 不管是任何事情。。我都爱你。。接受任何东西。。我相信这是爱情的魔力。。

可是。。为何你和我在一起。。你可以选择了别人。。而不能让时间看准这段爱。 你说你没时间。。可是你喜欢的那个人根本就不知道你喜欢他。。你愿意为了一个你喜欢而不知到人家喜不喜欢你的抛弃一个爱你爱到可以做任何事情的人。。你说我不够完美。。可是你又知道他是完美的？

为何？ 我不知道你们是否有没在一起。 你说我不够成熟。。不够上进。。我想问你是我的话。。你会真么想？我被一个最简单的理由打败了。 难道你不会心痛吗？

我觉得。。你真的不会。。 对你而言。。你选择你最想要选择。。 你又何必又回来关心我？ 让我觉得我们还有希望？

你曾经对我说你都是被抛弃的那个。恭喜你。。你终于做了抛弃人的角色。 你会心痛？是吗？ 有我的痛吗？ 我已经失眠了好几天。。 我只能说。。

我爱你。。可是。。已经完了。。

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要走要留你做决定。我已经退让一大步

Today is the day I do not believe in TRUE LOVE ANYMORE!

Today is 21st of June. It suppose to be our anniversary trip to Sydney. It suppose to be us hug each other and hold hand together on George Street in SYdney. But unfortunately you brought it before the trip where I am so looking forward about trip. Now, Im doing nothing at home and just cry. I do not know what is happening between you and me. What i know is i am being ditched by the simplest reason ever. All the excitement turn into the dust of sadness in my heart.

"We should work things in our relationship" This was our discussion one month ago. "Your attitude is a bit wrong, you shouldnt do this you shouldnt do that" I was quiet cause i do not want to argue with you and I love you so much. I wanna work things out since you said it was my attitude problem. After a month, you said your feeling towards me actually faded at the day we discussed the issue. WHY YOU DID NOT TELL ME YOUR FEELINGS HAD FADED which is the TRUTH! why you said is my attitude problem!!!!???? You could have tell me the truth and I can work on the right issue!!!!! I have been working hard for the wrong issue!!!

My heart is full of sadness and the feelings are so called " FML!!". You told everyone I am the best guy you ever met. I am the best guy you wil stick with forever. Everything Sum up together, was it true when you say this? I do not know and i hope it was true.

Someone could say I am childish for saying this loud and i want to get sympathy. To be honest, You guys can say what you want. If you think i am childish, Go ahead and think. Go ahead and bitch about I am an useless that can bear with this issue. But REMEMBER this! You are not the one who is suffering, I AM! I do not know who should I talk with. what i think is,

ALL the best for you. I think I can't get you back anymore and you won't want me anymore since there is someone better outside.

Cheers ....crying with full of sadness =(

LIFE..

LIFE= Happiness, Sadness, Stress, Joyful, Memory and etc

Solution:

ENJOY WHAT YOU CAN and Appreciate your LIFE

quote-11-10-10

First post in year 2010.

time flies like a beam. This could be the 1st time i ever view back my blog in year 2010. Last post of my blog was November 2009! Freaking two months passed and i can't believe i just abandon my blog for no reason.

Anyway, Happy new year Blog! although it is lame but wish you guys have a lovely valentine's day in next week and Chinese New Year to everyone who are in their hometown. This year i am not going back for Chinese New year. Why?? hmmmmm...good question. Nevertheless, My family are coming Melbourne to visit me in this CNY but i am having my final exam in Chinese New year too.

This is my first time celebrating CNY outside of home country. Even though i had never go visit my relatives back in my hometown. For me CNY is like a friend gathering. Miss all my Malaysia friends who are in Kuala Lumpur or Malacca. However, I met a lot of new friends in Melbourne. Not only Malaysian, there are someone from China, Hong Kong, Korea, Japan , Vietnam, and etc. Great thing i done in Melbourne was me and my fellow Malaysian friends had established a club in Deakin University. Well, i think this year would be a challenge to run the club because this is my ever first time being a president of a club. Anyway, i will try my best to run the club.

To be honest, my final is coming very soon. My first paper is on next Thursday and last paper is on next next Monday. I was studying like Shit!! i realize i hate study even though Corporation Law is quite interesting. Luckily it is open book exam. Another subject i'm taking right now is Auditing................. This is a boring subject. BORED TO THE MAX!!!

anyway, i don't know what am i writting. I think it is just a relieve stress post.

Damn!! I hate EXAM!!!

Fucking shitty week!

well well well....what a shitty week in my 2009 year life. I had never been feeling so uncomfortable and unlucky in my life. I mean it happened a week! Normally i got into unlucky time, it was only a day or 3,4 hours. However, I won't be forget the week in between 16th of Novemeber and 21st of November!

First of all, i was working with the worst boss ever, maybe because i am a student and those adults like to cheat on us as we don;t have any experience and society. I believe what my dad said to me. "When you are student, just do the student's way to settle things. it is still not your chance to get work and earn money. You can earn money, but you can't earn too much, Because you are a student and you don't have any experience, even though you do earn a lot, it is just lucky. Your stage as a student is to gain more knowledge and experience more things, so that you will know how to settle things in society because everyone is cheating each other in society"

Why i am saying this because I had been cheated by them for about two weeks plus. So, I felt so inconfidence about myself. I finally understand what i learnt back in Malaysia, how to social in Malaysia and Australia is totally different. Normally, if a boss said that you work for us $15 an hour, doesn't this mean you go to their office and work is working? I can only get AUD15 an hour if i go for client's place. Well, i don't know whether it is misundertsnading or they want to cheat me at the first place, if their intention is to cheat me, they really successful cheated me, cos i didn't get paid from them even though i travel so far from my house to work for them for 2 weeks plus. The travel time from my house to the work place is total 3 hours a day. So if i work for 3 days, i wasted 9 hours in a week(all of the time i used in public transport is express lane, if is not, it will be more than 3 hours a day). If i can use the wasted hour to work another job, even thouthe salary is low as 8AUD per hour, i earn at least 72AUD a day and it is better than going to office and earn nothing. Sometimes i was thinking, Am i the person who misunderstand it or their general knowledge is different with me.

secondly, my precious Emporio Armani watch which is very valuable to me, spoiled at the day i had misunderstanding with my boss. The Watch had been following along my high school life until my University. But it spoiled in the time when i was back to home and i wasted 4 hours in a bus because it was traffic jam at the moment. I thought the time was still 6pm when i reached home(cause i was sleeping all the way back home), And it is from ALTONA to HUGHEDALES!!! So i went back home, i looked at the clock, it was 8.30pm! I missed my badminton moment which is every Tuesday. I was so down and there is no food inside my house. All i ate was MILK! I think I don;t have the appetite to eat even though there is a food in front of me.

Thirdly, i get caught by not validate my ticket in using Public Transport, the reason i don;t wat to validate is i want to save some money even though i get to waste more in those unnecessary. It is just what i said to myself, something you can't save, you don't have to save. In the end, you are bearing the consequences.

Well well, this is just a release stress and my anger post. Anyway, hope i do get fine in the next feel days. I HOPE!! SERIOUSLY!!

JUNE---routine

eventually, time flies without letting us know what actually going. the reason i said this because i realized it's JUNE 2009 and i'm having my finals soon!!! i mean SOON!! ya!! i left 2 days for my finals as it start on next MONDAY to WEDNESDAY continuously!!! In worse case, 4 subject in 3 days continuously..LOL...

frankly speaking, this is my 1st time to have my exam continuously without having any days to rest. well... i hope when exam time, the times really flies!!! i mean FLIES!! On the other hand, this my 1st post in JUNE. muahahahhahahahah...Cant believe i really just dumped my blog beside and focus in my study. i have been studying like hell in library for 2 weeks. All the schedule are the same. it become my life routine and the schedule goes like this :

wake up in 7am in the morning.

takes the 9.30am bus to my campus

arrive in my library in 10am

starts my studies in 10.10am

having my lunch in 1pm

continue study for my finals in 2pm

takes 6.06pm bus home.

arrive home at 6.45pm

cook my dinner at 7.30pm

finish all my dishes in 8-9pm

revise or on9 until 11.00pm

having my bath at 11.00

sleep in 12am.

and it goes continue the same thing for morning. well. passing the same road, watching the same table i used to sit and looking thru those books i had been looking when i start my studies in DEAKIN UNIVERSITY.

there's a differences i am currently facing...

IT"S SUPER DUPER DAMN FUCKING COLD!!!!!!!!!!

can you imagine u are studying in a temperature of 3? well... it's not funny and is freezing!!!

the main reason that i want study in my library is to use their heator because heator cost extremely high in AUSSIE!

oh well, it is 7.12pm and i have to follow my timetable as it is time for me to cook my dinner.

PS: wish me luck all the best in my finals!! thanx =)

TO LEON EMMERSON!!!

this is for you dude!! wish you all the best in tomorrow paper and enjoy more times with your dearest in BRISBANE!!!

By the way...SWINE FLU in Australia is getting worse and worse.i hope that all my friends who are in Australia dun get anything serious.

life's still goes on...welcome back Adam =)

HEY, guess what? i hadn't been updating my blog for a month. i feel so bad that i left my LOVELY blog alone without update it for so long. Anyway, something happened one month back ago and it was a bad thing to me because i never expected this will happen and it affected me badly.

well, i'm not going to write about what was actually happened to me because it had passed and i realize life's still goes on. whatever happened is a past and i felt so sad about it. Fortunately, i have a lovely family who care me a lot and what had done is done and what i should appreciate now is really clear to me.

sometimes, things happen with a reason. well, i agree with this and i found out is not easy to understand this as the meaning is really wide. I was wondering, does bad thing happens with a reason too?? On the other hand, my MUM used to tell me to be happy even bad thing happens to me. Unfaithfully, i wasn't happy that moment because i can't find a reason to make myself happy. Finally, I realize that being happy is such a hard way for me at the moment. My family knew what had happened to me and they didn't blame for being so naive or childish when i acted stupid.

i remembered when i was 17, Mum told me "good thing appears together with bad thing and u should APPRECIATE what u have". i wasn't sure that time but i realized it now. it wasn't too late for me as i'm 21 years old now (for this year, but i haven't reach my 21st birthday...hahah) i found out that i am in the place which i always wanted to be here. YUP!! i always wanted to be in AUSTRALIA. it is part of my dream to be here. i should be happy instead of being sad as this is always i wanted to be.

To be honest, i gave up this great opportunity back in two years time and i really regretted that i was supposed to study in MELBOURNE after my high school graduation. well, why am i here currently?? this is because my best fren LEO EMMERSON. he is the one that let me know how stupid i am at that time because i shouldn't give up the chance when i got the chance. Thank for the encouragement dude!! i really appreciate that for waking me up!! WHY?? because is part of ur DREAM!!

For me, i realized what my dad told me when i was graduated from high school, " LONG(my nickname in my family, it's mean "dragon" in chinese)!! do u know how important for a guys to have their dream? IT IS DAMN FUCKING IMPORTANT BECAUSE DREAM REPRESENT YOU and YOUR DREAM REPRESENT YOUR VISION!!" (ok. the "DAMN FUCKING" is just for expression to show the importance). Honestly, i was stunned when he told me and i really realized what is a dream now. Seriously, Never ever give up your dream for someone or something else!! I don't think is worth to give up a dream so easily because you might be regretted. And i don't recommend to do this!!

In this month, something goods really happen and it makes my life even happier now. why? Because i appreciate every single things that i had now. i told myself "ADAM TUI, it's time for you to be happier than last time because you had got what u want". It's so true that i have everything, like those who cares about me, loves me and make me happier. i should APPRECIATE them. "APPRECIATE WHAT YOU SHOULD APPRECIATE". this is what i learnt in this lesson. life is like a class or exam, sometimes you might fail and pass or even get a HIGH DISTINCTION. That's why it taught what we should do in the end and we learn things after the lesson.

To be honest again, i was thinking to give up this blog as i am not really in the mood in blogging anymore. Thanks for LEO EMMERSON again for fucking me that i should continue blogging. As a matter of fact, what he said really bang me, " what's the purpose for you to blog? Don't tell me YOU create a BLOG to let people see and wanted to be famous? COME ON!! i created my blog because i want to write down all my memories. So that i won't forget what really happened to me." (ok..maybe he didn't say it rudely as this is what i understand and i express it out =P) I agree what he said because memory is really important to our life. You don't know what's going to happen next and you should memorize those nice and sweet memories that you had at the first time. this makes me to find a reason what i really want now.

well, it's time for me to improve myself to become a better person. this is what i should do now. besides that, i should thank one of my favourite reader who is being so supportive and bringing me so much of happiness. thanks for everything, you let me learnt my lesson and i gonna APPRECIATE what i have now. thanks you so much for caring me. you really understand me =)

i feel sorry for those other readers for not updating my blog. Anyway, i will update my life as i share what is happening to my life.from now on, I will start my biggest challenge as i decided to use PROPER ENGLISH to update my blog and i'm so sorry to my AUSTRALIAN friend--DAN who said my english sucks 3 weeks ago because he don't understand "MALAYSIANS' style english" well mate, I gonna shows you that my english isn't that bad. hahaha.. Anyway, Thanks for suggesting me to write in proper english. I will try my best to improve my english. haha.

Hence......WOW!! i think i am writing an essay because i never try to write so much without putting any pictures. everything have their first time and this is so my 1st-proper-englsih-blog.hahah. I write this because i want to let all my readers know...I AM HAPPY now and just wanna to share what's my thinking.

In conclusion, Be smart and APPRECIATE WHAT U HAVE NOW. ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO CARE ABOUT YOU and those who are special and close to you!!

LIFE!! here i am!! =)

Grampians Pic...nice place to go!!

due to my best buddy WC diu me for not update my blog...

so... i'm gonna update now..

as last post i mentioned abt i came back from "Grampians"...

for those who r in Melbourne definitely know what place it is...

but for those who not...i will explain wat "Grampians" is...

GRAMPIANS is a very very very very(i seriously mean it!!) nice place for those who like hiking, sightseeing, bbq, have fun with frens...

as i went there with those PFMA (PAY FONG MELBOURNE ASSOCIATION) as Pay Fong is my high school back in Malacca...

too bad i dun hav a DSLR to take down or those view...haiz...

but i used my Omnia to take down some...

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nice???

i am so love the place!!!

Gonna buy one DSLR !!! >.<


PS: thanx for those PFMA ppl for organising the trip !! i really enjoyed my time!! looking forward to our next trip!! =)