Wednesday, June 29, 2011
turn around turn around turn around
I want to sing a song for you
sing for myself
you are my everything
and I really love you
在泪干了以后 想听你说 爱我
I want to sing a song for u
在泪干了以后 想听你说 love you
Monday, June 27, 2011
为何？ 我不知道你们是否有没在一起。 你说我不够成熟。。不够上进。。我想问你是我的话。。你会真么想？我被一个最简单的理由打败了。 难道你不会心痛吗？
我觉得。。你真的不会。。 对你而言。。你选择你最想要选择。。 你又何必又回来关心我？ 让我觉得我们还有希望？
你曾经对我说你都是被抛弃的那个。恭喜你。。你终于做了抛弃人的角色。 你会心痛？是吗？ 有我的痛吗？ 我已经失眠了好几天。。 我只能说。。
Monday, June 20, 2011
Today is 21st of June. It suppose to be our anniversary trip to Sydney. It suppose to be us hug each other and hold hand together on George Street in SYdney. But unfortunately you brought it before the trip where I am so looking forward about trip. Now, Im doing nothing at home and just cry. I do not know what is happening between you and me. What i know is i am being ditched by the simplest reason ever. All the excitement turn into the dust of sadness in my heart.
"We should work things in our relationship" This was our discussion one month ago. "Your attitude is a bit wrong, you shouldnt do this you shouldnt do that" I was quiet cause i do not want to argue with you and I love you so much. I wanna work things out since you said it was my attitude problem. After a month, you said your feeling towards me actually faded at the day we discussed the issue. WHY YOU DID NOT TELL ME YOUR FEELINGS HAD FADED which is the TRUTH! why you said is my attitude problem!!!!???? You could have tell me the truth and I can work on the right issue!!!!! I have been working hard for the wrong issue!!!
My heart is full of sadness and the feelings are so called " FML!!". You told everyone I am the best guy you ever met. I am the best guy you wil stick with forever. Everything Sum up together, was it true when you say this? I do not know and i hope it was true.
Someone could say I am childish for saying this loud and i want to get sympathy. To be honest, You guys can say what you want. If you think i am childish, Go ahead and think. Go ahead and bitch about I am an useless that can bear with this issue. But REMEMBER this! You are not the one who is suffering, I AM! I do not know who should I talk with. what i think is,
ALL the best for you. I think I can't get you back anymore and you won't want me anymore since there is someone better outside.
Cheers ....crying with full of sadness =(
Monday, October 11, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
Friday, November 20, 2009
First of all, i was working with the worst boss ever, maybe because i am a student and those adults like to cheat on us as we don;t have any experience and society. I believe what my dad said to me. "When you are student, just do the student's way to settle things. it is still not your chance to get work and earn money. You can earn money, but you can't earn too much, Because you are a student and you don't have any experience, even though you do earn a lot, it is just lucky. Your stage as a student is to gain more knowledge and experience more things, so that you will know how to settle things in society because everyone is cheating each other in society"
Why i am saying this because I had been cheated by them for about two weeks plus. So, I felt so inconfidence about myself. I finally understand what i learnt back in Malaysia, how to social in Malaysia and Australia is totally different. Normally, if a boss said that you work for us $15 an hour, doesn't this mean you go to their office and work is working? I can only get AUD15 an hour if i go for client's place. Well, i don't know whether it is misundertsnading or they want to cheat me at the first place, if their intention is to cheat me, they really successful cheated me, cos i didn't get paid from them even though i travel so far from my house to work for them for 2 weeks plus. The travel time from my house to the work place is total 3 hours a day. So if i work for 3 days, i wasted 9 hours in a week(all of the time i used in public transport is express lane, if is not, it will be more than 3 hours a day). If i can use the wasted hour to work another job, even thouthe salary is low as 8AUD per hour, i earn at least 72AUD a day and it is better than going to office and earn nothing. Sometimes i was thinking, Am i the person who misunderstand it or their general knowledge is different with me.
secondly, my precious Emporio Armani watch which is very valuable to me, spoiled at the day i had misunderstanding with my boss. The Watch had been following along my high school life until my University. But it spoiled in the time when i was back to home and i wasted 4 hours in a bus because it was traffic jam at the moment. I thought the time was still 6pm when i reached home(cause i was sleeping all the way back home), And it is from ALTONA to HUGHEDALES!!! So i went back home, i looked at the clock, it was 8.30pm! I missed my badminton moment which is every Tuesday. I was so down and there is no food inside my house. All i ate was MILK! I think I don;t have the appetite to eat even though there is a food in front of me.
Thirdly, i get caught by not validate my ticket in using Public Transport, the reason i don;t wat to validate is i want to save some money even though i get to waste more in those unnecessary. It is just what i said to myself, something you can't save, you don't have to save. In the end, you are bearing the consequences.
Well well, this is just a release stress and my anger post. Anyway, hope i do get fine in the next feel days. I HOPE!! SERIOUSLY!!
Friday, June 12, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
so... i'm gonna update now..
as last post i mentioned abt i came back from "Grampians"...
for those who r in Melbourne definitely know what place it is...
but for those who not...i will explain wat "Grampians" is...
GRAMPIANS is a very very very very(i seriously mean it!!) nice place for those who like hiking, sightseeing, bbq, have fun with frens...
as i went there with those PFMA (PAY FONG MELBOURNE ASSOCIATION) as Pay Fong is my high school back in Malacca...
too bad i dun hav a DSLR to take down or those view...haiz...
but i used my Omnia to take down some...
i am so love the place!!!
Gonna buy one DSLR !!! >.<
PS: thanx for those PFMA ppl for organising the trip !! i really enjoyed my time!! looking forward to our next trip!! =)